the girl with a dream

an amazing hair day everyday

2011-05-24T09:29:00.003+08:00

Something i wanna share with u guys. taken from a devotional. (: Be blessed.

Is your life right now a " bed of roses" -- free of problems?
" HA! Are you kidding? " That's how many people would respond. " Right now i can't even remember what a rose smells like!"

I've noticed through my own painful experience that sometimes people get stuck in their pain. By that i mean we take this attitude: " I refuse to feel better until this situation that can't be changed is changed." When we do this, we are painting ourselves into an emotional corner.

When I am stuck in pain, no one is responsible for my feelings except me. I may not be able to change the circumstances, but i can choose my attitude toward them. Someone sent me a humorous email called, " Attitude Is Everything!"

It seems a woman woke up one morning and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.
" Well," she said, " I think I'll braid my hair today." She did and had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up and saw that she had only two hairs on her head. " Hmm, I think I'll part my hair down the middle today." And she had a great day.

The next day she woke up and noticed she had only one hair on her head. " Today I'm going to wear my head in a ponytail." And she had a great day.

The fourth day she woke up and saw that there wasn't a single hair on her head. " Wonderful!" she exclaimed. " I don't have to fix my hair today!"

The Bible says, " Be made new in the attitude of your minds. " ( Ephesians 4:23) That's a good advice for all of us.

changes,i dun quite like them

2010-10-17T09:30:00.002+08:00

there might be big changes next year.
problem is i never liked changes :(
the thought that i MIGHT, ( i repeat, its not certain yet ) i might go to AUP next year,
is slightly troubling.
it depends whether will UK tuition fees for international students go up.
which is still unknown to everybody.
-

it means i have to start anew.
make new friends.
i dont get to eat with my usual gang. ( smacks hands on face )
i dont get to see my usual coursemates.
argh, sangat tak suka.
even the unknown changes that are bound to happen in church.
( who knows? (: ) is making me kinda uneasy.
-

splitting up passion and b'uh'nanas was never an easy experience already.
but yea, i kinda survived.

-
nuf' said.
just wanted to share this lollipop song to brighten ur day :D
and mine too.

new phase of life ...

2010-10-11T22:57:00.006+08:00

im gonna be so sick with exams soon,

first AS which is in 2 days time. less than 24 hours.

then next SAT...which i have no idea how in the world will i have time to prepare.

and then...maybe TOEFL and IELTS...

=-=

and as if this was bad enough,

i have to start applying too.

US uni's by 1 Jan 2011.

UK uni's by 15 Jan 2011.

cute thing is...i dont have an exact choice of where i wanna go.

yes, laugh. laugh. im laughing at myself anyway.

=-=

then,

there's HK competition = a lot of late nights choir practices.

mega sports camp = helping with food for a few mornings

firecamp = aha, for once, i dont have much to do. :)

A2 exams = i've got to brush up on my FM A2 syllables which i flushed down my brain 2 months ago.

empty pocket = needs to look for some part time jobs.

old phone = means new iphone? hahahahaha.

as some of the people i know will say.

"this is connie's busy life."

"this is the connie i know. "

yeah.

sounds like the one i know too. :)

3.10.2010

2010-10-03T17:59:00.003+08:00

this blog of mine really needs a makeover.
it usually becomes alive in a midst of major exams.
stay tuned ppl,
for panda photos or....
grunts or weird posts or maybe emo-ish feelings.

the other day,
leslie talked in ISCA about having a dream.
i thought i didnt have one.
and seriously gave much thought to it.
the fundraising for Fire Camp for care cell kinda inspired me that
i wanted to run a business.
the thrill of getting stock at the lowest prices after surveying at
tesco, econsave, sunshine farlim, tesco extra, giant...

thats something i like doing.
and packaging your goods,
as in for the fruits and stuff.
and also, the feeling of counting money...hahahahaha.
(so explains why im not having a science career.)
PLUS, i like handmade stuff and creative stuff.
like Zakka. japanese term for "junk"
where people use junk to make something lovable and wallet emptifying.

i totally love going to etsy.com
or martha stewart.
or art blogs.

the thought of producing something,
marketing something,
selling something
makes me feel i've accomplished something
by helping consumers
buy something they truly like.

that's why i always end up spending most of my time
doing things like that instead of studying. :/
who knows, maybe i'll be able to set up a chain store
or a line. maybe i dream too much.
but its fun and it keeps me going sometimes. :)

dreams dont have to be a reality sometimes.

i need some help here.

2010-08-14T11:21:00.005+08:00

CAN ANYBODY

GIMME

A MOTIVATION SUGGESTION

SO THAT

I'LL MAKE MYSELF

SIT DOWN

AND

STUDY???

(:

2010-07-20T00:18:00.004+08:00

im gonna promise myself that i aint gonna do anything about it.

its perfect as it is.

so pls, connie, save urself the trouble

and leave it alone. (:

i'm okay.

and i will be.

-change of mood-

*looking forward for the end of the year HK trip.*

totally means another shopping spree. ^^

30 June 2010

2010-07-01T00:05:00.004+08:00

Anya's case somehow gave me a call...

how fragile life can be...

how much we would try to live a life when we ourselves have no idea

how long more can we number our days...

i did wonder today...

what if i died?

would i have something to leave behind for my loved ones and for the people who love me?

would i have no regrets and leave this place with a smile

and be ready to stand before my Heavenly Papa and tell Him

"i ran a good race, Pa!"

Am i ready?

i need to ask myself more often.

How many times have i slacked from doing what i should?

just to fulfill my personal desires?

or just to bury myself in those endless pile of work

just to satisfy my desire of being much of a workaholic.

or how many times have i hesitated to tell somebody,

"you did great!"

"Good Job!"

or to even tell that somebody that

"i do care"

but instead act as if i dont

or to even tell somebody that

he or she is really missing out on something in life

the one thing that's most important of all

that is the love of Jesus Christ.

i'm amazed how many times i thought more than twice

to go forward and to share

when i can spend by impulse when i SHOP.

irony much.

when i die,

i hope to have left something behind for everybody

it may be a dream

or a little piece of some memory

or even the tears shared

or maybe the achievements we achieved together.

i hope that when you attend my wake service,

you would see my pretty picture,

(it better be the prettiest picture...)

and smile and say,

"i'm glad i had Connie in my life."

that would be great and that's going to be my goal.

and yes people, sing songs during my funeral.

praise songs...like Go tell it on the mountains...

i would love hearing that from heaven...

and don't worry people,

im not having any depression or any suicidal thoughts.

just writing something that just gave me a blow in the head. (:

so yesh,

number your days.

make people say,

im glad i had you in my life.

and make God proud by running the race faithfully.

r.i.p. anya

something i read

2010-06-05T09:03:00.005+08:00

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand abocve?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life--
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know what you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others might have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until i shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall be always hot,
Your socks and your shirt as a whole:
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing:
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts--
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that His Maker, God
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say, "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day:
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its side?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true
All things that a man should be:
If you give this all. I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay:
But a woman's heart and woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

A woman's question--Lena Lanthrop

kinda of a good reminder that its ok for me to set my standards high. :)
re-read the purple bold highlighted part.
scarily true.

gonna have my first exam of the year.
its back to the books now.
toodles.

not going to make a big deal

2010-05-24T23:51:00.004+08:00

no,
im done with it.
i've dealt with it.
i've forgiven
and i choose to forgive again and forget.

just that i need a little time.
and im giving you all the space and all the privacy u need.
don't you worry a thing, im not mad.
i'm serious.
just tat maybe, things have changed.
since your status changed.
but i understand. :)
i can adapt to changes quite well, for the world's standard's and mine too.

so there.
I'M OK. :)

i kinda wonder how are my buddies, like
cy,
sher,
tzin nie,
wan ching,
tammy :)
coping with life now.
i miss the old days.
when we could do whatever we want. and laugh like nobody's business.

YOU, CY AND SHER!
are the main culprits. XD.

palms wide open

2010-04-25T14:58:00.006+08:00

this coming month is going to be a super tough month for me.
every thing is going to be so unstable and so uncertain.
the problem is...
im going to be static. for a change.
its the people around me that are going to change.

i so hate the leaving part.
this is the only part i hate about leaving school.
well, hey, i get to leave my hair, dye whatever colour i like,
paint my nails, wear anything i'd like.
drive anywhere i wanna...so its like a huge chunk of freedom
on my hands.
then there has to be D part, that i hate most.
" goodbyes"

sher lynn might or might not be leaving.
the thought that the 'powerpuff girls' is going to be separated.
is just so...
so....
not happifying.
then there's yvonne, another darling of mine,
going off to bahrain, (hope i spelt tat correctly)
and then off to USA.
then there's maylyn,
off to oregon, USA.
its like all my gal buddies are slowly leaving one by one.

and if u've seen my previous post in fb,
like i wrote,
"nobody is supposed to leave when i'm still here."
but seriously, i have to keep telling myself

" stop being so selfish! its one of the phases of life."

i don't like it because i dunno
if...i can make our friendship stay the same way
...i can accept that we may not remain as good friends after so many years apart
...i can accept the fact i may only be titled as "this was my best friend, LAST TIME."

but all i can do is...
put it all into God's hands.
He takes people in your life away
so that He may introduce ur loved ones
to others to bless them.
as He will introduce new people in my life
and to for me to have the room
in my heart to bless them and be blessed in return,
He has to take away those people who have fulfilled His plan in my life
and send them off on their new journey.

all in all,
i believe in His plans,
thought how uncertain it may seem,
thought how vague it may seem,
But i shall choose to trust with both of my palms
wide open without clinging on to any of my strength.
this is going to be my mindset for the moment.
100 % faith
its not easy
but with God's strength, I can.

should i?

2010-04-11T10:34:00.003+08:00

the other day, shi hao sent me this email.

'' Winter Choral Festival 2010
Hong Kong Disneyland and Resort"

my eyes just went big!!!
it was always my dream to join a choir and participate in some serious competition
but i never had the time especially when i was still in peng hwa.

u get to go to hong kong disneyland.
u get to go sight-seeing in HK
u get to perform during disney magic music day
well, u get the idea....

so audition is today...
im just going there and play.
i hope i can sing and sway..
and then hear what the pianist has to say.

stuff i never told u

2010-04-04T16:09:00.003+08:00

1. i did consider buying a big nikon/slash dslr and i seriously lurve photography.

2. i did dream of being a psychologist.

3. i regretted stopping my ballet last time.

4.i still remember the time u covered my head with a carton box in the rain.

5.i cant forget that hug u gave me when i cried so badly. and i seriously appreciate it.

6.my mum is a determining factor of my weight. hahaha. ask me...

oh gosh, i cant even type up to 10.
i think i practically tell u guys everything.
so much for being mysterious.

this is to brush off the dust on my blog

2010-03-30T22:43:00.004+08:00

hahaha.
i have no idea what happened to my urge to blog nowadays.

oh yes,
if u were wondering how i've been.
i've been busy.
and if u noticed.
i think i'll never said i was free. hahaha.

college has been fun.
at least it isnt as hectic as secondary school.
but then, there are tons of temptations
that can drag u away from ur table.
(well, i might be at my table with the wrong motives like facebooking)

i have made some interesting friends and discovered some interesting facts as well.
and if u read further,
u might be able to notice that most are not from my gender.
dun ask me why.
my conclusion is, i knew most of the galfriends i know now.

1. my fingers are amusing.
the Yap twins found my sausage-like fingers very amusing.
which is like a wonder for me.
cos everytime i cup my face in despair with my hands,
they laughed as if i just used cow dung as a facial mask.
and then they started comparing palms.
very predictably, mine was the shortest.
theirs could even bend a joint over all my fingers.
(those who could do that were giants, so its genetic)

2. my smile looks like a cry.
i think eric started that theory.
he said that, when i smile, its so hard to differentiate whether i was crying or smiling.
so now, when i smile,
i have to deliberately, use my fingers to push the ends of mouth into a smiley curve
like this >> :)
then the twins laugh again.
cos my fingers amused them. *rolls eyes*

3. my name has multiple versions now.
a) con con
b) ah corn
c) jagung
d) ke ning (WITH THE WRONG INTONATION)

i guess the 'connie the cow" nickname didnt make it to college.

4. it irritates the guys when my height can change by a few inches overnight.
hahahaha.
i have to go thru so much indecisiveness on shoes.
cos if i wear my heels,
they'd complain.
but if i dun, my jeans are far too long.
so sometimes, i just dun care and i shock them silently by just standing beside them.
and they'd eye my feet immediately.hahahhaa.
i just love that look.

5. i have come to a conclusion that
when its the gals that take action, that relationship is likely to blossom.

no extra explanations needed.

6. there are ppl who can eat a 4 person portion and be as skinny as a stick.
i'm serious when i meant stick, he's all brown and stiggy.
he's a tennis state player and super good in further maths.
so hes's like a weird combination.
cos usually ppl are more developed in either areas.
oh yes, envy him! yep, he's Pang.
i cant even see any flab on him!
and i think he has a waist size of a gal.
not to mention he's 180...(rough estimation)
can i just not talk about him?
he just makes me feel obese by now.

7. it amuses PS when i am irritated by him.
so can u imagine how horrible my life is?
not to mention, he just switched to my maths and mechanics class.
i think that's 14 hours a week of being in the same class with him.
i'm praying hard for him to get selected for jpa.
and only see him in court decades later.
hahahaha. i'm predicting that RY will tell him about this.
and he'll be fuming mad.
did i tell u, i like to irritate u too?

enuf said.
i've officially updated my blog.
God knows when my next post is.

who said we were complicated

2010-02-07T15:31:00.002+08:00

during my bus ride back from kuala gula,
(i went to plant mangrove trees)
with a tan and a scarred foot,
i've come to a conclusion that gals aint the only complicated spesies.
sometimes u guys are equally unreadable.
you dont want a gal too dumb
nor a gal too smart
you dont want a gal too ugly
nor a gal too pretty
you would love guys who can have the same interests u have
but would want a ladylike gal
u dont want a gal who nags
nor do u want a gal who doesnt care....
see how complicated u guys are now?

but well,
before i arouse any heated arguements,
lets just say that humans are plain complicated. :)
gals arent easy to understand, i dun understand my own kind sometimes either.

clarifications

2010-01-30T09:36:00.002+08:00

just to clarify a little stuff.
davids, THANK YOU!
is that enough to cool you down already? :)
and andrew aint a monster.
in case u guys have that impression.
he was just pek chek with me.

i so do not need another compliant regarding my posts again. haha.

when u see me with that face

2010-01-27T20:22:00.002+08:00

i've ben making that face all thru that class.
just that class.
only that class.
yea, its economics.
it is so so so hard!
i'd rather do 100 do-able add maths questions then
analyse graphs, curves and names that just boggle my mind.
what indifference?
normal and inferior goods?
PPF? PED? YED? XED?
gah....
never have i felt so helpless before.
seriously.
even bio wasnt that freaky in form 5.
and especially when u have davids, as ur classmate.
he knows this sub a lot.
(if u're reading this, dun be too flattered and show it off in college.)
i just have to ask him to explain A LOT.
and he's like, " cam d you, liddat have difficulty d, how to take exam."
sigh.
and economics is not the only subject.
i make Andrew growl in fury even after he tried numerous times to help me understand those further maths theories.
i make Pang realise that he did most of his homework wrong.
so that kinda makes me the annoying gal who just cant seem to understand the simplest things.
hahaha.

well, till then.
i have pure maths, thinking skills and economics tests to worry about.
back to exams and fattening sessions.
imagine that before CNY.

~toodles

sometimes two rainbows can just make your day.
it did today.

life goes on?

2010-01-21T16:51:00.003+08:00

that was certainly a wake up call for me.
who knew?
they/ we arent even adults yet.
they still had a bright future ahead of them.
that's what i assume.
its always the case
we plan plan plan for the next 10,15 years
when you dont even know when your time is up.
funny huh?

really makes me ponder.
am i focusing too much of the worldly things that arent eternal,
till i forget to focus on fulfilling my purpose in life as His follower,
before i reach my expiry date?
am i treating it as a norm to assume i'd live up to 80 and
have dozens of grandchildren,
till i think its unimportant to act now?

its time to get things straight.

2010 aint a happifying year

2010-01-09T10:46:00.003+08:00

its only january
and i hear news of who's leaving and who's leaving.
and it doesnt feel nice.
especially those friends who can make you feel that you can spend eternity together with them.
rational people would say its life.
i'm rational.
but i still dont like it.

i always thought how would it have been,
if i was the one leaving.
would I be missed?
i dunno.
my mum would. that's for sure.
or maybe they'd think its life too.
and time just washes away the memories,
little by little.
i just hope i made a mark in their lives.
a good one.

haven't got anybody dear leaving too far away yet.
Thank God and it wont be hard for them to come back and visit.
but if you know u're dear to me,
and you're leaving soon.
i don't mind an early notification if you don't like a wet shirt and floor.

spend spend spend

2009-12-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

hahaha.
ignore me.
i am so neutral after chinese man.
BUT i am so going to spend for the whole week.
my mum even brought an extra LARGE bag just to fill it with my spoils.
and i shall make it my goal to fill it FULL!
wait, i cant exceed the 15 kg per person limit...
never mind...
a shopaholic has her ways...

-100- another weird dream

2009-12-12T01:09:00.004+08:00

i must be dreaming about college too much.
i dreamt that it was the first day of college.
there was a LONG LONG line of new students waiting to get their student ID.
funny thing is,
mine showed,
Lee Connie
Choir

that kinda puzzled me.
everybody else had arts.
but why did i have choir??
and the college was more like a amusement park than a college.
they had a water park.
a theater. a big big one with red heavy curtains and rows of comfy chairs.
it was a maze.
i had to walk around to look for my choir partners.
oh yea, my mum was in the dream too.
and i remembered having to climb up a helix shaped stairs with just railings.
and they just wouldnt end.
i think i woke up when i was about to fall,
and guess what.
it was 530 AM.
my usual wake up time during school days.
my biological clock didnt wear off yet.

i told my mum.
and she told me,
"maybe u should consider taking up singing as your career."
*rolls eyes.*
*blink*
*shakes head*
nah.

dettol-sick

2009-12-06T22:58:00.004+08:00

its been ages since i've online.

not that i've been studying REALLY hard.

its just that it was contaminated with cosackie bacteria.

you know, the type which only kindy kids get infected with?

yep, my bro's the kindy kid here.

my mum was totally terrorized.

well, cos' she has a daughter who still has half her spm exam to go.

so poor sammie was in quarrentine for a whole week in his room.

i hardly got to see him.

just would peep in my head in his room from time to time.

with gloves on to turn the door knob and

slippers on to prevent my feet from getting the bacteria.

the whole house had a strong dettol smell

which just gave me headaches.

did i mention i have a very careful dad?

sam's out from "jail" today.

and he's been talking non-stop.

haha. i would.

he had been in his room playing DOFUS online for day and night.

my mum couldnt have a say since he's too bored.

and he still isnt sick of it.

amazing.

tuesday is going to be such a happifying* day

shopping day!!!!!!

mum reluctantly agreed to take me shopping

since i grumbled that by the time we come back from our trip,

its either the sales are over

or there are no sizes for me.

so yipee!!!!

my wardrobe needs cleaning and replenishing.

toodles now.

i really need to add more pics next time.

RY, CY and QI's blogs look so vibrant and colourful!

that is if i take enuf pictures.

maybe the trip might help.

*i hereby declare that I, Connie did not invent the word "happifying".

(just in case you complained that i stole your vocab)

p.s. yeh, what if i told you i regretted making that promise :P.

haha. u're gonna whack me huh?

tech prob

2009-11-26T09:49:00.003+08:00

current status:
deleting all my maths formula.
installing biology facts.

message pops out:
process denied.

argh!

another message pops out:
please make sure you have enough space in ur hard drive.

problem is
i dont.
and even the malay and history wont go away!!!!

oh ya yeh yeh.
i should understand what u're feeling now.
and i feel so bad that i didnt do much for you.
very bad.
i'm going to make it up to you.
not gonna promise when i 'll do it cause when i do,
i always break my promises.
so have patience and wait ha.
hyeh hyeh.

tg rambutan here i come

2009-11-21T13:24:00.002+08:00

call me insane.
i'm so excited now!!
as if christmas is tomorrow.
i'll be going to college next week.
and as if SPM is over.

hahahaha.
hahahahahahaha.
hehe.
okay.
stop.
compose self.

hahahahaha.

prayers answered

2009-11-17T08:30:00.002+08:00

finally
the lady who knew what to do came.
FINALLY!!!!
you know what people,
i've got a feeling you guys will be feeling happy on the 14th of Dec.
haha.
maybe its just me.
wheeee~

p.s. i just found out we left out 2 advertisments.
SCARY!!
a class intro is pretty messed up.
tsk tsk.
but well,
we're fixing everything!

i guess i should head to history now.
or bm?
dilemma...

ignore me

2009-11-11T15:44:00.003+08:00

i am neutral.
i think.
not trying to think about anything now.
even if the graduation year book is awful
even if its too horrible to be distributed today.
even if a lot of SPM-ers will be screaming at me.
even if the cover is way out of alignment.
even if the colours look like they need a LOT more yellow in it.
even if there are tones of mistakes cos he actually printed the wrong copy!!!
(can you believe this??!! spending 9 hours in his office to make sure everything is right means nothing)
even if there's a mistake in our 600 ringgit worth advertisement.
even if we're going to reprint and get it real late.
even if we're going to get the book latest ever in peng hwa history.

i think i care.
but i aint radical.
this book is important so is SPM.
like i said,
ignore me.
i'm just doing a self analysis on my problem
with my blog.
and ppl, i'm sry...
i really am.
i'm sorry i wasted your morning in school.
making you hope you could get your books by today.

p.s. hippo, no photos today, totally wasnt in a mood.
p.p.s. chung, just go to your layouts, click add a gadget, then scroll down and look for logo. then shift it wherever you want.
p.p.p.s. like i wrote in fb, still standing strong here with God's strength! :)

dusting clean the memories

2009-11-08T16:02:00.003+08:00

i am super jilat with my history now.
very jilat.
just sat my bum in front of the tv
(benice will nod in agreement to this statement)
ate a french roll, a slice of it i mean.
u can assume i ate the whole thing,
shan't care about how you think how un-skinny i am. :)
and i went thru my posts,old posts.

conclusion?
very amusing.
i sounded childish.
haha. with all my career indecisiveness,
oh yes,
and my so called i'm-doctor-love-posts.
hilarious.
i don't even know what love is by now.
and i don't think i'm ready to know yet.
and i've long forgetten my-meeting-my-bf-dream i dreamt.
as if it was flushed down the toilet.
all i remember is,
he wore specs.
a white shirt.
and he has the "si1 wen2 " look.
and if i'm not mistaken,
he has the smoothest face a guy could have. scary!

okay.
enuf said.
back to SUPP, PANAS ah yes, and SNAP. *_*

a change

2009-11-07T09:35:00.005+08:00

i just realise that my layout looks kinda emo-ish.
well, nvr mind.
dun have time to change it.
but i still like its earthy tone. :)

toodles.
p.s. i shall tape my laptop up now.
and shuff it somewhere, maybe under my bed.
or maybe i should just destroy the power cords.
haha.
this wackiness of mine clearly indicates
PES= pre-exam stress

11.11.09

2009-11-03T15:01:00.010+08:00

" er, can all the form 5 girls take note, the graduation year book will be distributed on the 11th of November, which is a wednesday. Please help to inform your other classmates who are absent today." -ms ng, 12.51p.m. tuesday 2.11.09

FINALLY!!!!!!! !!!!!! !!!!! !

to be honest, i have the temptation to demolish mr cheah's (printing company BOSS) image right now.

But,

he said sorry.

so if your friend repents even 7 times a day, u shall forgive him.

even thought i wouldn't consider him my friend.

*control, control*

BEEP-!

*anger-coolant button pressed*

thermometer drops to normal mood.

breathe.

*smiles* (a lot of ppl have been telling me to do that)

i've got to be grateful.

so i'll think.

Thank God its before SPM.

even if we got it the latest ever in school history,

so nobody will be able to criticize and tell me in the face.

i dun think i'll be able to handle it.

just to imagine, 1 year's of hard work

was only worth a"yer, so nan2 kan4" (i'd die, so dun do it)

so even, if it was only worth that yer.

i shall assume it was a masterpiece. :)

but i still have faith, you guys would agree with the masterpiece statement :P

what am i saying??

and u know what?

i think,

i think...

i'll cry when the books arrive. :)

p.s. i have tons of photos to upload in fb, dixie's, yzern's,graduation day.

p.p.s. SPM in 15 days.

p.p.p.s. to all my committee members, i lurve you guys to shreds!!!!

p.p.p.p.s.yes, i am smiling, ppl.

its official

2009-10-20T21:12:00.003+08:00

okay.
i'll admit it.
i'm a perfectionist.
but not a careful one.

im pulling my hair now!!!
argh!!!
its so frustrating when you have a collection,
and then to your horror!!!
u misplaced one of them??!!!!

gah!
and i can actually spend an hour looking high and low
when i should be studying.

so all u people out there,
don't get me into collecting stuff,
i'd skin you alive.
i.mean.it.

im just the fav type for all those sneaky businessmen
who always come out with those collectibles
cos' i lose them
and i'd buy them to complete the collection.

tsk.tsk.
pengguna yang tidak rasional.

if you're from YE 08' or
from the yearbook commitee,
and you're reading this,
dun laugh... u should be glad i didnt make your life harder, XD

think twice when you deal with God

2009-10-14T16:22:00.006+08:00

sometimes,

very capable people can be so caught up with themselves.

they do things so well that they tend to forget about God's grace.

they think they can achieve everything they set their heart to

well, which is true.

and they think they can control their own lives their own way.

*

i fall in that category.

*

you might be rolling your eyes in disbelief

that i actually think that i'm quite capable of doing loads of stuff.

you might call me a show-off.

*

i call that-PRIDE.

*

i've been battling with this issue since form 4.

especially when i was actively involved in YE.

i always thought if i work hard enough,

things will work out and i'll get my reward.

simple.

little did i know that i was prideful.

i thought i was a good testimony for Christ.

being so involved with all sorts of stuff yet trying hard to cope with studies.

i think a preacher talked about it...

or uncle sam prayed for me...

only then did i know i was trying to play god.

*

daniel ross came last week.

he has a lot of this very wise theories.

like, " show me your friends, and i'll show you your future."

" unforgiveness is like drinking poison and wanting the other person to die."

wise right??

he gave an illustration of surrendering to God.

with a feather.

you see, God does not force anybody.

He lets us have our own free will.

and when He calls on you, its just a soft, gentle whisper.

if you happen to hold on to your feather ever so tightly,

even if you say you surrender.

its unlikely that it'll fly away.

(feather= burden) my own interpretation.

but if you actually open your palm flat

and let God take control.

He will, together with your worries too.

*

I'm learning that with my year book.

i made a prayer saying that i'll let go of my feather.

little did i know, that it would have cost my yearbook.

God knows where your heart is i guess...

and what a lesson!

and to all my schoolmates who read my blog.

yes, we might not make it before graduation night.

but i leave it to God for his perfect timing.

*

and i wouldnt want a lousy yearbook with full of mistakes and errors

just because i wanted it out fast.

i wouldnt wanna hide somewhere once i finish distributing the book to you guys. :)

no wastage

2009-10-06T00:23:00.004+08:00

ppl should grow...
not stunt or die.
it just shoudnt be that way when you have tons of nutrients in you.
*
well, why is it that i feel that i'm not growing at all?
maybe i havent sacrificed my time at all for the past month?
or i've been comforting myself that its ok?
or i just tend to slack off my bible time later and later now?
wake up, gal!
i've been giving in to the temptations too much.
now its so hard for me to find my will power.
*
i need Connie back. seriously.
God's version of Connie.
God-filled Connie.
passionate Connie.
ever-ready to serve Connie.
and I'm going to get her back tommorow!
*with God's strength of course.
i dun wanna a life like this.
i dun wanna waste it without fulfilling any plan of God's.
its just such a pity to waste a beautifully created creation. :)
*
you too, ppl.
dun waste yours.
its such a pity.

blastocyst phobia

2009-09-24T14:33:00.003+08:00

lemme tell u a secret.
when i was in kindy,
i adored babies.
i loved holding them, feeding them, playing with them.
if u ask me...
i think i was trying to play adult.
my mum wouldnt wanna have another baby.
sam was already born, we're just 20 months apart.
*
so i told myself,
since mummy wouldnt wanna give birth to one.
i'll have 12 kids when i grow up.
(okay, gawk all u want. i probably thought having children/ giving birth to children was as easy as doing your business, well thru the anus.)
*
there was once, mummy went for a checkup.
and dad announced at the dinner table
" we're having another baby!!!"
*
guess what i said.
i cried.
cos' i was scared the new baby would get all my mummy's attention.
haha. selfish me.
*
as i got older,
like in primary school.
i thought maybe 2 is just enough.
twins would be great.
that was before i knew that you had to sew the baby's entrance to the world after delivery.
*
after yesterday,
i'm not sure if i want kids anymore.
cheryl, my cousin's daughter, 3 years old, 15 kg.
insisted that i piggyback her.
that would not be an issue since i'm like 3.5 times her weight.
the problem is, she wanted me to exercise so badly.
" piggyback wo3 shang4 qu4 la."
" piggyback me upstairs la." (translation)
*
i did.
and as i was wiping the puddle of water she spilled in my room.
she just sprawled over my back and said," piggyback me downstairs."
i wanted to faint i tell you.
i carried a 15 kg heavy girl up and down and up and down.
i was wobbling, the mum didnt realise i think.
and she was having the fun of her life.
laughing her head off.
*
p.s. so if any of you,
wants me to babysit your child,
please make sure he/she knows that babysitters arent meant for piggybacking.

different species

2009-09-14T15:28:00.003+08:00

If looks can kill a guy,

fantasy does the same for a girl.

seriously.

michael buble has the

most AMAZING voice!!!!

ahh,(*shriek!)

rach... he's mine.

don't you even think of it.

you can have edward.

i dun mind. :)

exam stats

2009-09-09T18:33:00.003+08:00

bm: so so. at least i know mencolek.

history: horrible. really horrible. i got mixed up with all the inti pati perjanjian.
**********my form 4 is officially a goner.

have faith?
i shall praise God in anything, even in my failures. amen!
well to which i think i'm to be blamed for not studying enuf.

have faith. have faith.
moral tml.
i have faith that i will not get an egg for both moral essays!

scream!!!

2009-09-06T19:09:00.003+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!bash! boom! pliang! crash! prak!!!
*
i am screaming my lungs out.
throwing my stuff on the floor.
just smashed a mug.
i think i destroyed my wooden ornament.
and tore a piece of rag apart.
*
ggrrr...
moo has mad cow disease now.
beware.
*
NOT.
though u guys might be dying to see me in that mode.
*
im like quiet.
sulking.
not smiling.
not laughing.
didnt even talk to my mum for more than 50 sentences. = very rare.
hmmm. something wrong here.
i didnt even have appetite. =super duper rare.
*
not emo, ppl.
not emo.
not stressed. - later ben is going to go hysterical again.
just not my usual self. :)

toodles.

u evil black box. me no likey u. roar.

love bug

2009-09-03T01:54:00.007+08:00

i really think the love bug bit me.

i'm like smiling to myself for no absolute reason.

i dun need ice cream to make me happy.

nor do i have to shop to de-stress.

is this love?

its amazing.

i've never felt that way.

i dun have to tell you how i feel

and i believe you feel the same way too. :)

i kinda regret not being able to sense it a little earlier

or i was selfish not wanting to accept it with other choices in mind.

yet, you didnt care, at all, not one bit.

you were there always...

sigh...like huey nee says, its like you have glucose in your heart.

oh gosh...

i can't describe this feeling to the exact details.

i'm trying so hard.

i was searching for love...

yet all i had to do was to sit down and

see who was beside me.

simple.

you made the rain go away whenever i wanted, you made it shine for me.

well, not too hot either. i melt.

u made me know that i was loved. truly loved.

despite my looks, my temper and my disloyalty.

i'm trying hard to make a commitment

but i know you know me too well to have patience with me.

you know what? i love you too.

its been really long since i smiled from my heart.

and you made it happened.

if you're kinda wondering who it is,

the label would be a very good hint. :D

satu malaysia

2009-08-31T02:49:00.003+08:00

do check it out.
like mr yip (ex chinese teacher) says
we have to know more about our country.
ms. tan lay see would have sarcastically said that we were princesses di bawah tempurung.
which i do agree.
i'd rather see in the papers whether has andy lau admitted the fact that he's married
then well, look at the other sections.

well, surprisingly.
the videos are pretty amusing.
i would give a thumbs up since these are from malaysia.

just click on the picture to go to the website.
btw, not all of them are out yet.
"halal" is the nicest by far.
but "lumpur" has a lot of meaning to it.

not going to slap myself.
this is educational.
esp for moral.
what an excuse.

ps. if u attempted doing that, i can tell u, u succeeded.

but don't u worry one bit. i can do the exact same thing.

toodles.

mummy blues

2009-08-28T12:24:00.003+08:00

sigh...
i miss my mum.
terribly.

she's been away since monday and will only be back on sunday night.
one week! one week!
its such agony...
imagine, talking to her every moment you want.
well, i talk a lot to her.
a lot. i am the TALKATIVE girl at home.
surprised?
haha. its the opposite.
outside, you talk, i'll listen.
at home, only i do the talking.
i'm sort of like her story machine...
cos' i practically tell her everything that happened.
with loads of gestures and facial expressions.
and she laughs.
its so nice to have a responsive audience.

that's y it such a depressing week.
nobody to listen to my grandma stories.
nobody to hug me when i get really pek chek.
nobody to cook vege (one full plate) for me because well, erm, i have bowel complications.
nobody to watch those korean dramas with me.
nobody to tell me, " wei, relax enuf d lo, can study d."
(which is bad esp with the trials coming up)

on top of that, its so rainy.
doesnt make my day any better.
well, trying hard to make
" mummy, i'll be skinnier by the time you come back. :P"
as a motivation which i got
chuckles = ( she's not buying that) as a reply.
at least its a motivation for me to hope that she won't be back soon.
my fats are really stubborn. :)

and i'm sorry if this is depressing for you to read.
well, an emo post once in a while makes my other posts very cheery :D
what a theory.
toodles.

" CONNIE ar, wake up!! -----------(censored). want oso cum talk with me. Hahaha...If u want 2 gt scholarship, save sum money 4 sam, then STUDY! just xin1 ku3 few weeks nia. Ok?"

-sms from sher

slap slap.
go study.
save money for sam.

squeak!

2009-08-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

when things come to the worse,
even plastic tastes good.
elecricity has been cut off,
and we have to live in the attic,
cold and wet, especially when it rains.

sniff...
something smells nice...
fish....
at last. must have been some kind-hearted man who left it at our doorstep.
i rushed to gobbled it but to my terror,
i was confined to a compartment.
mum!!! i've been kidnapped.

that burly man took me and place me on the grassy fields.
i was terrified.
it was so bright that i could not even see clearly.
thump!thump!thump!
i heard footsteps.
i turned, and " sizzle..." was i all i heard.
i ran, and ran and ran.
but i was just going in circles.
the pain was overwhelming and all i could remember was the sauna was overheated.

in case, this post is confusing.
lemme fill you in.
there's this rat=i who loves to nibble on the wires=plastic on my ceiling.
it triggered off the alarm one night.

so my dad=burly man/kindhearted man decided to put a mouse trap=compartment there.
he placed salted fish=fish in it.
and he got the rat.
it was cute actually.
so daddy took it out to our garden=grassy fields
and went to boil some hot water=sizzling?
and he poured it over IT!!! gasp!!!
it ran and ran and ran in circles.
it was so hot! i could see the steam.
at last, it squeaked.
it broke my heart...
all i could see was that his left hind leg was in vibration mode.
like how the dogs would do it.
i'm guessing that the muscles were relaxing and contracting too much.
and there it was, wet and red.
like how it would turn out to be in a overheated sauna.

in case you guys think my dad is cruel.
i wouldnt want to dissect it either.
which was my dad's other option.
who knows what it ate in the roof.

sweet much!

2009-08-08T21:24:00.003+08:00

i feel good when i'm around you,

but its a secret i won't tell you. (from hui mei's blog )

i am so in a "quotes" craze right now.
and my classmates got me into it.
anybody who has any nice quotes to share just scribbles it on the right side of the board.
and yeah, the teachers stare at it either with
" who wrote this?"

" who is supposed to wipe the board??!!"

but its usually dixie, michelle or xin yi who does all the scribbling.
i do the understanding and the exclamations, "owh, i get it! i get it!"

btw, i personally think proverbs is full of wise quotes.
i kinda regret only appreciating it now. :P

cool as cucumber

2009-08-08T01:18:00.003+08:00

i'm fine.
i am chilled.
i'm not stressed. positive.

just tat i've been feeling that i have been MIA for loads of stuff.

greedy gal just wants it all.
in everything, be it studies, career, fun, responsibilities, friends and likable-ness from everybody.

greedy gals get tired being greedy.
but they dun know what to cut down
because they have been used to being greedy and holding onto everything.
so decision making for her...

is SUPER HARD!

when was the last time

2009-08-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

when was the last time i had a decent talk with a friend?

when was the last time i stopped and looked at the starry night?

when was the last time i knew what you were going thru?

when was the last time i had a good talk with God? ( which is bad )

when was the last time i stayed anger-free the whole day?

when was the last time i sang wholeheartedly?

when was the last time i stepped into a cinema? (ages...)

when was the last time i lay on grass to look at the clouds...?

sigh....

well, at least i've got somebody to pick on my brains for the time being :)

it helps a lot, kinda see a very interesting friendship ahead.

toodles.

i need...

2009-07-23T20:32:00.003+08:00

i think i need a man.
but i don't have time for a man.
and there are not enuf men for options.
*
oh man...
pressure and late nights just shot my hormones to the max.
*
this will be fun to see you guys response to this.
btw, i'm still single and will be till...HE comes along.
*
i read an article.
*
" I once had an auntie who was single even though she was in her 30's. Chinese New Year was really a hassle to her, because the relatives would pester her every year to get married. My auntie who was a christian just told them, my Adam is still in deep sleep and hasn't woken up yet. I'll wait till he wakes up and come my way." -unknown author

that were really words of wisdom.
in case, you didn't know about how Eve came about...
God put Adam into deep sleep and he took one of his ribs and formed a woman, Eve!
so, to my Adam,
sleep all you want...just appear when God tells you to!
*
p.s. chaw yeh, i just found out that
your lumps in your head= swollen lymph nodes.
pls eat less maggi mee la!!!!

diving STICK

2009-07-13T22:32:00.005+08:00

this is something i really have to share.

so yeah, went out for lunch yesterday and my parents insisted that i drive.

we went to dong nan and went for chendol at sushine farlim.

went to the bank....

i am boring you right... :)

kakaz.

ok. i drove home and as i opened the electric gate.

!!!behold a 60 cm long ( 2 long rulers )

lizard/mini komodo dragon!!!!/reptile la!

was SUNBATHING on my porch!

ON MY PORCH!!!

aiyeee! amphibians are the grossiest things on earth!

so i was squealing, mighty loud too,

and i was at the driver's seat, which is dangerous for the whole family.

so the two male Lee's decided to catch it with their bare hands!!! * drum rolls....*

so not!!

they played tag!

you're it! nO! YOU'RE IT!

dad was at the gate. sam was at the garden.

this thing can run, i tell you.

just imagine it, a very flat long scaly thing, running across the tiles with its 4 puny legs.

HILARIOUS!!

it was smart too.

running about and hid in my metal box which covered the engine to the gate.

my dad had to get ready at the box.

my eyes were glued and up the box went.

that thing ( i'm going to call it Stick ) just ran for its life

Stick ran out then it ran near the edge of my neighbour's gate.

but i suppose the past experience shattered its nerve and it hesitated.

so it continued running, ( sam was chasing it )

and i guess it was looking back till........

STICK DIVED INTO THE DRAIN.

or should i say glide.

i hope it swims.

but sam was grinning up to his ear when he saw it.

so that's a bad sign.

choices...and fast too!

2009-07-07T20:35:00.002+08:00

acturial science?

i heard its very hard.

medicine?

erm...pass.

teaching?

maybe. but maybe something more challenging?

business?

mum doesn't really agree.

marketing?

i like it. but will i survive in M'sia.

fashion?

oooooh, mah favourite!!! = impractical

editorial?

i'm practically sick of it rite now....

mass communications?

do i make a good reporter? yet, quite hard to survive here.

singing?

hobby yes...career...i don't think so.

engineering?

my dad wants me to consider. he studied as one actually.

but i don't even know what an engineer does??

well, my dad certainly didnt end up as one.

what if i don't either?

and yes...i know.

you guys are dying for me to mention this.

mummy?

its a natural. no certs required. you just need lots of love and patience.

+ a few kids + a husband + a house to wear you down.

you know what?

final conclusion.

pray. since HE's the only one who knows what i'll be in the future.

birthday frenzy

2009-07-01T16:38:00.004+08:00

i am so weird.

i get nervous surprising ppl.

the other time, when we had to surprise huey nee.

it was agonizing.

i was literally shaking cos' i was waiting for her to use the loo to slip her present in her desk.

and when she came back...

she was soooooo sooooooo sooooo blur that she didnt realise it for 15 minutes.

that meant another 15 minutes of shaking.

with me at the back wanting to hit her on the head so hard to make her see it!

that was case #1.

*
*
*
case #2 had to happen yesterday. :)

see man's birthday.

this girl is like the princessiest gal i've ever met

her self made crown

so wanting to surprise her... we decided to get her a custom-made puzzle.

go to this web to check it out.

caution: be aware of the dying of tons of body cells

it was so hard to ask the person to deliver it to my house.

cause apparently, he said i didnt put my full address.

well, hello? sir? you could have called before you balik rumah?!

not till 5 something then you called, then tell me you couldn't contact me.

and worse still, asking me to go all the way from air itam to sg. nibong to pick up the present.

wa??? i paid RM 6 for your service sir!

finally, he said he would send it to my school.

funny thing is,

when i told him, " encik, saya ada sekolah tau?"

" oh, kamu cikgu ya? saya hantar ke sekolah cikgu..."

pengsan!!!!

well, at least my form teacher is a very kind lady.

so he sent it to my teacher's desk.

i only saw the parcel at 1.00 p.m.

and i had to run a marathon from the teacher's office to the chemistry lab!

mind you! we end school at 1.15 and i had to dissect the puzzle.

thank God huey nee helped me.

well, that makes a happy birthday gal after all.

so happy birthday, woman!!

i passed!!!!!

2009-06-18T20:30:00.002+08:00

like the title.

i passed ppl.

woohoo. watch out for a crv with a chic lady driver ppl!!!!

i'm so going to terrorize the roads ....and my mum.

all i could ever ask for

2009-06-15T20:30:00.004+08:00

God has been tremendously good to me for this week.

last sunday, when i dropped sam off at church.

i happened to sms mabel to ask her to help out for deco.

in a rush, carrying stuff off the car and stuff...jasmine thought we should have brought a luggage.

i hopped in the car and my dad drove me off.

then as i reached island hospital to study.

aha! yes. it was super quiet tat day.

i was rummaging thru my bag to see if mabel replied.

to my horror, i couldnt find it anywhere in the car.

you're probably thinking i dropped it in the church carpark.

i thought so too. and i remember hearing a " plak!" when my dad drove me off.

i kept praying and praying.

visions of my half splitted phone and a badly-cracked screen were playing in my head.

my dad drove me back to church right away and i was crooning my head as far as i could.

gulp, no sign of it.

doomed. i have no idea where it is now.

then i saw the guard holding onto something on his left hand.

its black! my handphone pouch!!!

Thank God....

and the guard was saying, " ho chai, wa kua tiok er. abo pit ki wa tok um zai liao lo."

translation: luckily i saw it, or not i really dunno if it cracked.

see? God is so good?

He even takes care of handphones.

The guard could have not seen it...he could have been looking at his eye level and not the floor.

and i'll be handphone-less till SPM.

another thing to praise God is that BK exams are postponed till friday!

woohoo!

my responsibility?

2009-06-07T11:59:00.003+08:00

what is my responsibility right now?
being a cell leader?
being a worship leader?
being a "ah long"?
being a deco coordinator?

i thought so too.
but auntie stella said something at BK that just struck me.

I AM A STUDENT.

that meant it is my resposibility to study well.
and to make sure i have enough time for it.
that meant i have to set my priorities right.
knowing what's important, what's not.

this is really something that i'm going to think about
during my remaining hols.

some things are best left unspoken.
i wish i didnt have to hear them.

Thank God!

2009-06-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

i had my 3rd driving lesson today.
this was different car, and the clutch and i seemed to like each other.

you know what guys,
i love you guys to shredds, to bits, to minces, to powder!!
thank you sooo much for your encouragement and your prayers.
and your tips on the clutch.
and scolding dear ah pek.

i think i made progress today.
i dared to change to gear 3 without ah pek saying,
" eh, change d la!"
now, he's greedy.
he wants me to change to gear 4. i am terrified of that!
gah! and my engine really went "plucatizx" at the junction.
twice! thank God i wrote some of my " before i die" letters.

QTI is next thursday.
and the test? next next thursday.
pls continue to pray for me.
i'm forever glad to recieve sms's from you about anything i should take notice.
i need advice! mum and dad forgot everything about their clutches.
i'll pretty much do the same, i guess.

my legs are sore. but i can't wait for the day to terrorize the roads!!
hope no monkey wants me to take them for a ride tml at penang hill.
i really hope i don't get lost.
i haven't finish my letters yet!!!

~connie

i sniffled today

2009-06-01T13:22:00.006+08:00

actually it was more than just teared

i bawled.

you'll probably laugh at the reason.

i got scolded by the ah pek who taught me driving.

i am seriously scared of that round pole and the left pedal below my left feet

they are so mean...

they just dun want to co-operate with me!!!

i try to change gear, cant slide it in.

press the clutch again then my steering wheel "woosh" to the other lane.

ah pek:" EH!!!!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!! DRIVE NEVER LOOK AT THE CAR BESIDE AR!!"

me:" oh...."*timidly

clutch is the most uneffective invention, use auto la! make my life so miserable.

i wanted to change from gear 2 to gear 3. i always forget to let go of the minyak pedal

you know what he said.

ah pek:" never improve wan ar you, haiyo. NAH!!! my 2 ringgit gone d lo. you ask yourself la, how much petrol you waste d?? "

me:"ha..." *more timidly

then as i was going real fast, actually its quite slow la. just 40 km/h...but its still scary k!

a car wanted to come out from a junction.

i didnt dare to press my brakes, cos from experience, i would be too slow to press it together with my clutch, and the car will go "plushcatiz" ---dead.

so, thinking i was smart, i turn to the right A LITTLE, trying to avoid the car.

ah pek:" HA!!!!! NEVER SIGNAL THEN JUST GO OUT LIKE TAT AR!!! HAIYO, YOU AR! FAIL LA !!

my tears wanted to drop so badly.

but i wouldnt cry for the ah pek.

he asked me to drive home.

i didnt reply him with the "oh..." " ha...." at all.

got back.phew, my body is still intact.

said thank you uncle. still trying to be polite. even though i wanted to scream at him at the moment.

once i got back home, i cried, " mummy!!!! i dun wan to drive d!!"

i just sat there, and cried and cried and cried.

never in my life has a man talked to me in that whole life. never ever!

my dad just chuckled. said i was too pampered.

my mum laughed when i told her that ah pek complained i was wasting his petrol.

sam, he was grinning from ear to ear when he eavesdropped.

dear ah pek, even though my mummy suggested that i change uncle,

but i still want you. i want to show you that this gal will drive till you have nothing to say.

so please be nice for the moment!!!!!

if you drive and am reading my blog, please be kind not to laugh.

please!!!!!!!!!

celebration!

2009-05-31T22:19:00.004+08:00

friday was such a day for me.

last day of exam.

3 hours and 15 minutes of tuition in a row.

been in the house for less than 2 hours that day.

celebrated elaine's bday.

went out for pizza.

i was earlier than huey nee for once!

applause ppl!!

but i was the first to go as always...

the pics...

huey nee and zl have been pestering me.

next time ask ji ye to do it.

since his is very very canggih!

unlike mine rite??

looks fine from the top...

eekk!!!

i have no idea how this happen.

it wasn't a pleasant sight too, to see the boys unravel the box

and whisper about.

you can sense straightaway that something was wrong.

boys are just so predictable :)

behold!

ninja elaine and her half-smashed tiramisu cake!
*

the cake!!!
i like this picture the best.
cos i took it! i took it!!
*

there's no need for any intro, i guess.

the three posers. ><

group piccie!! so hard to get them to take one.

happy now? :)

ps. there are very few pictures here cos i wanted to be in the photos! haha

guilty

2009-05-23T19:53:00.003+08:00

you'd never know you made me feel guilty...

i hope you don't.

it'll make me guiltier.

finally learnt to appreciate sleep

2009-05-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

sleep was not much of a luxury for me.
i would rather do some stuff sometimes
or i just sleep straightaway once my head touches the pillow.

after experiencing only 20 hours of sleep for 5 nights.
i need sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, imagine me, studying.
my eyelids start to droop.
so i say to myself , : ''its ok, just close my eyes for a while."
i literally sleep upright and my head starts to sway in circles.
i open my eyes again, slap myself a bit.
and the cycle repeats again till i get myself a big cup of thick nescafe.
i think i'm addicted...
really need to deaddict myself during the hols.

somebody asked me, what motivates you to study?
kia-suism?
i thought it over.
to my horror,im not joking, i was horrified.
all my years i studied for the exam was because i kia-su...
and it wasnt because i was really interested or i wanted to know more....
this is bad...
and i have one more week of exams to go.
really need my kia-suism now!

full full full as always

2009-05-11T11:34:00.002+08:00

my holidays are full!

can you believe it?

its a month before my hols and i know its full!

i have the P.A.D coming up, going to be very amusing this year.

ooh yes, driving lessons.

need to do some props for our class drama presentation

going to hike penang hill. walk up, tram down.
( this time, the clouds wont stop on my head, daniel! )

i have to shop! and help to shop
( see man and jamie, you get what i mean )

watch a movie. the last time i stepped into a cinema....was last year.

stayover at auntie angie's place.

and, dreadfully, tuition...

okay....back to books now.

the schedule now cant be much of a motivation for me to study.

more of a distraction.

this post is so much cheerful, isnt it? i hope it is...

learning

2009-05-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

warning: emo content below. please at read at own risk.

from now on,

i'll learn to be happy.

i'll learn to be contented.

i'll learn to appreciate love.

i'll learn not to criticise.

i'll learn not to gossip.

i'll learn how to encourage.

i'll learn to be patient when its really really hard.

i'll learn to be a tad more demure.

i'll learn to be understanding.

i'll learn to respect my dad and mum.

i'll learn to shut up when i really should.

i'll learn to stay when friends need you.

i wanna learn because i been thru those times and i know just how it feels.

when ppl around you seem sad,

when ppl grumble,

when ppl just have something to say about everything you do,

when ppl say things that are not true,

when ppl pull you down from your dreams,

when ppl blow up even if you really do need help,

when ppl laugh too loudly, (it scares me, A LOT!) i dun wanna be that.

when ppl just cant see the whole picture,

when ppl just treat you lightly,

when ppl just cant zip their mouth when they really need to,

and when ppl leave you just when you need them.

sometimes, it takes hurts to learn...

p.s this is not emo la k.
u think it is cos' it makes sense to you...

for how she looks or how she is?

2009-05-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

scene 1: u see a gal, vavavoom.

fell in love.

why? her eyes are super gorgeous.

scene 2: you got to know her better.

you realized she got some inner qualities that u really do admire.

status confirmed: can be wife material.

scene 3: after numerous courtships (notice i dun use DATE)

the both of you guys are used with each other's company.

no more make up. no more proper table manners. the *burping* comes along sooner or later.

[hopefully not from the girl.] and those feet gradually appear on top on the table while watching tv.

scene 4: one day.

on a very very last minute movie night.

you are waiting for her at the cinema.

you see this nerdy gal walking towards you with all smiles.

she looks very familiar but those ever-sliding down specs assured you that you are just having an illusion.

you're WRONG! its her.

option A : you are totally disappointed, cause you fell in love with her
gorgeous/fake/magnifying contacts wearing eyes before you fell in love with her.

option B : you don't mind. girls like to be pretty. what's the big deal.
you like her for who she is in the inside.

think ppl. girls, think of her as a guy with fake biceps. i seriously don't know how that's possible. unless that guy wears long sleeves all the time and stuffs his arms with rectangular pillows.

seriously. don't give me the typical answer.

"oh i look on the inside." think!!!!

will you look inside?

or just couldnt bear having the thought that this is not the girl you fell in love with?

60th post

2009-05-02T02:05:00.005+08:00

#1. Whenever you feel fat, never ever look at models or even fashion catalougues or pretty skinny gals that still look fab even tho they're vaining.

#2. Whenever you think you're skinny enough to eat a tee bit more. THINK AGAIN.

#3. I think i'm talking too much about the fat issue since i just told my gals in CG not to be bothered by it.

#4. I really should be sleeping now. Can you imagine i drooled twice in my sleep?
* this should be censored.* spoils my image. *winks

#5. I wish I was of smaller build. like my mum. knock knock, connie!! practise what u say and write!

#6. miss cy, rihanna is not a hyena. very different species. and i do not have snarling teeth.

#7. I really dun mind losing the Challenge Trophy. I think we gained more out of it this year compared to last year.

#8. hmm, australia or USA? aus more expensive, USA too far. argh! i shall stay here and marry off then. save some money for my dad for his so called retirement holidays.

#9. i have fears that nobody would want to marry me.

#10. i wish it was 2010 now. SPM woosh sudah over!

nitex ppl.
its 0215.
imagine a cow genetically mutated to a panda only at the head.
not a fancy sight. even though the patches and colour do match.

snip snip!

2009-04-27T21:07:00.005+08:00

that was a totally daring move.

i decided to snip off my iconic bangs and layer off my another iconic bob.

had no idea what made me do so.

i suppose i wanted a change.

maybe i wanted to make sure people will still accept me even if i changed from the outside.

i guess i'm just afraid of not being accepted.

i think i look like rihanna now *winks

nah! still too fair to be her.

at least i've got comments that i dun look so hot (not sexy, what i mean is juak, ok!) without my distracting hair.

but still, my head feels too light...

never mind...

its not like it'll not grow back.

ps. sher, pls have a teeny bit more patience.

i promised, but not yet :)

Future? unpredictable...

2009-04-16T21:23:00.004+08:00

its frustrating.

you've been thru that?

then you'll know what i'm talking about.

ppl asking you about what do you wanna study.

what u wanna be.

yada yada yada....

i don't know.

so stop asking.

i am just so random.

i see something.

i wanna be something.

like the other day,

i was watching CSI

i told my mum i wanna be a crime investigator.

hahaha.

u should have seen my mum's face.

the next time,

i saw a show on animal planet.

about vets i think.

then i wanted to be a vet.

then i saw those really nice photos of cakes.

i told my mum i wanna be a cook/baker/chef.

the other time,

my parents were thinking of renovating the ground floor

i loved the architectural magazines!!

then i wanted to be an interior designer.

you know the fashion magazines in those hair saloons?

guess what i wanted to be?

a fashion magazine editor!!

like those for female, elle...

my current experience with the graduation magazine,

just blew that dream bye bye! i'd rather read them

then make people read them.

jasmine is teaching tuition now.

so i told my mum i wanted to be a tuition teacher.

like ********,

or other rivals.

then finally,

yesterday.

see man asked me to be her fashion consultant...

wakakaka.

i asked her why?

she said,

"you take nice pictures."

weird reason, but still i was flattered.

and i like shopping for people too.

the weirdest kind of advice for a choice of job

i received was...

be a lecturer.

what?

i'm a future business lady.

not a lecturer!

i would rather chubby, innocent, know nothing toddlers

than adults.

urgh!

to S5A -IANS, and whoever

LISTEN HERE!!!

i've got enough reasons above

to prove that i have other career options besides being a mum.

~moo

( anymore suggestions? )

# 2 yamie~ blurrie

2009-04-15T16:15:00.007+08:00

tada!!!

first time edits!

clever me!

well, not me actually. its the program.

super easy.

makes u look like a pro.

this was supposed to be posted a few weeks ago.

dear, jamie.

remember we used to sit at the right side of the hall?

in old church?

remember the camp that we had to protect our fragile eggs?

whose one broke?

i forgot.

remember our first youth camp?

that we scurried back to our rooms,

out of fear of the suspiscious men outside?

ah, the good times.

even the times we served in jr cids.

its like we did everything together. well, almost.

not to mention the dozen times u left me at camp

while u were in s'pore.

honestly,

i think your blurri-ness is a result of ur blurry vision.

hah! you would rather not wear ur specs and live ur life in blurness.

that makes u super adorable.

i love u for ur frankness too.

u taught me to really mean what i say.

like the other time,

" jamie, stop me from eating the whole plate at church this sat."

" just eat tong3 shui2 can d la!"

gulp, the fear of hunger just took a grip in my heart.

kinda slapped me to realize that if i wanna diet, mean it!

and those times when we talked about boys...

aha! dun show me the look, ppl!

as if u don't do that!

hilarious.

i still think u were the one who made me laugh.

it was not my very true statements that made u laugh.

gosh.

i'm blabbering.

before i die,

i want you to know...

that you've been a GREAT bestie!!!

and believe that you can achieve great things in God.

His promises are hanging above your head anytime.

just reach out your hand and grab it darling!

BFF! even till i die!

~moo

# 1 Benice a.k.a 'ni'

2009-03-29T16:37:00.002+08:00

lemme see, this is supposed to be updated so long ago.
okay...

dear benice,
do u still remember the first line you spoke to me about?

it was in 2000, i think.

u said, " ni hui jiang hua yu de ma hor?"
you know to speak chinese de me hor?

*the following conversation is censored due to some complications*

u stunned me.
who wouldn't la.
imagine a indian young gal talking to a eight year old gal in chinese.

i only got to know you in cell group. i just knew your name before that.
u were one of the legendary samars.
i used to think of that. haha. well, ben kinda destroyed the family image.

u were really someone i could look up to.
someone i could ask advice from yet not feel bad about myself.
u make everything sound as if somebody has gone thru that.
and those wise words about bgr.
u were the rational one. always.
and u always have the wisdom to whatever issue discussed.

ooh, yes.
the very mad times.
that's why i like being with you.
you've got the gila rempah in you!
when we posed with the *ahhem*
when we pushed thern's face in the cake.
when we were planning for the easter skit last year ( the 3 dumb blondes )
and the times you always say, " this is fattening."
i am so gonna miss you if i leave...

oh yes yes.
not to mention about the same fashion views we have.
its hard to find someone like tat.
not to mention i adore your curls eveb tho u had to cut them off
when u tangled them up after a shower.
ha.
and no, you're not a granny.
u're a hip diva.
u've got to accept who you are.
i think we both need to learn that.
that the CREATOR created us perfectly.
and we've got to accept our flabs as how they wanna to be placed.
yeah, LEVEL : DIFFICULT.
and the tough times we go thru together as cell leaders.
like u say, leadership can be so lonely.

all in all.
i love u dearly.
eveb though i can't express much of it.
but i really do.
do read this letter at my funeral. ^^
and i hope i didnt wet ur keypad.

~moo

goodness!

2009-03-20T15:02:00.001+08:00

guys, just try not to fit a tennis ball into your mouth.

i know!!! i'm was like blank.blink.blink.

how can they do it so well?

i guess i can't say i have much of a talent in art anymore.

ppl, before u slap me.

i did not go ONLINE for a WHOLE day yesterday!

so,no slapping.

10 woah! things

2009-03-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

1. ry, ur blogawards frenzy is making everybody changing their blog layouts.

2.ry, i cannot believe nobody voted for me.

3.heloo ppl. i'm sweet, down to earth and i have D nicest blog layout. * fullstop.

4.dun bother about 1,2 and 3.

5.jamie and ni, your letters will have to be after my exams. i need less pressure and more inspiration.

6.pray that i won't die by then.

7.moo talk is officially non-emo.

8.ying shan is form 1! *faint* i tot she was form 2.

9.back to the blogawards. leslie's blog is more ancient than kah heng's and thern's blog is not down-to-earth.

10.i think i'm going to flunk a lot of subjects this time with all my time blogging here. somebody slap me!

~moo

ps. before i die

2009-03-18T09:19:00.006+08:00

i'm not going to die just yet, well, if you were surprised at my blog title.
who knows, maybe God wants me up in heaven early.^^

i kinda got the inspiration from p.s. i love you
but my version will be kinda different.
the book's version is you only read the letter after the writer dies.
my version is you better read it before i die!!

hah.
sometimes there are some stuff i wanted to tell that somebody.
but i never got the chance.
then i'll only regret it at home.
and i just can't say to u out of the blue...saying:
erm, hey, i wanna tell you that....blah blah *something from the heart*
it's just not my style.

so i've decided that i'll write these letters to you guys.
but i need to know whether do u want me to.
in case you dun want me to blab about some hush-shush details. :P
u never know what i can still remember.
ask marky, i have super memory. with people.

so just shout at my shoutmix.
and you'll be reading my letters to you before i die.
just get a tissue ready when u read my letter to u. wakaka.
i love to see ppl cry.
well, wondering who i'm talking about.
look at a mirror and say, i think connie is talking about u.

~moo

korean frenzy

2009-03-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

wilson brought us out to eat last sat to celebrate justin's b'day.
guess what.

we had korean food.

and u know, u can't have food without RY and BEN

RY : so nice....the food so nice you know. my goodness.

BEN: AHHH!! must take picture to blog! *snap snap.

Wilson: eat la eat la! this one is very nice.

Benice: oh no, i'm getting fat d. * what? i'll be obese then.

Justin: ~~~~ he's very quiet.

Ruby: ~~~just taking pictures.

bang L: ~~ busy eating the rice that benice gave him.

maylyn:~~ i feel fat... * another one.

justin did all the ordering. in korean!
and he really knew what to order.
he was like the tour guide.
wilson was his loud speaker.

justin: this is our traditional food we eat for new year....(very politely )

wilson: THIS IS WHAT THEY EAT FOR NEW YEAR!!! (like some fishmonger)

it's called tok-po-ki.
rice cake and maggi mee.
deee-licious!
i kept eating the rice cake till i had so much gas in my stomach and i felt like bursting.
we had steamed egg.
and sushi.
the kind owner made them for Just for Justin.
ooh. just for justin. they rhyme.

benice couldn't resist trying them

even tho she said she couldn't stand the smell.

justin treated us supper after that.
yep. korean supper.
korean ice cream! and drinks.
we girls discovered something very extraordinary!
and we were screaming and shooing the boys away.
but we were lucky to be the only ones int the shop and in the restaurant.
justin must have been embarassed to have us around.

kamsahamidas, justin opa.

cute rite? the colours were so real.

and it even had dark spots to make it look like seeds.

that's why i like korea.

they do everything so nicely.

not to mention they wear everything nicely and fashionably too.

and their guys

are super gentleman-ly.

surprises

2009-03-07T00:14:00.004+08:00

okay....i didn't expect that...

i went to the loo.
got back.
sat down.
tot my classmates were going to sing me a bday song
(its the tradition they do, when somebody uses the loo, its their prime time to pakat)
well, i heard silence....

no song.
never mind.
mine isn't today either.
pn teoh, chinese teacher says, " xin yi, fill the pemantauan file."

xin yi gets up and gets it.
and puts it on my table.
puzzled...cos she does it everytime.
but i tot maybe she's busy.
so i opened the file.
i squealed...
a loud squeal.
a pop-up card saying
happy birthday connie
gosh....
i kept laughing and laughing and laughing
out of shock i guess.
or for my impoliteness for making such a noise in class.
then, the bday song came.

haha.
i laughed till i teared.
they probably think i'm too touched.
well, sry to make u disappointed guys :)
but i still love you guys to bits.
thanks for the surprise!
you should take my squeal as your prize.

and...okay fine ppl.
i'm motherly.
i get it.
i'll accept the fact.
i can't believe almost every person who wrote on my card tot of me as motherly!
i'm exagerating...not all la.

.....thx for your advice all these years along the way (that's y we call you 'lao dua mak') -huey

dear connie: you're cute & motherly. -min xuan

to connie: i will miss the days you "chase" us to science lab, screaming for us to pass up our books. you are like S5A's mum!!- yee cing

connie:.........encopsulates everything you're lovable for: your cuteness :) your glow:P your motherish nature XD -xin yi

gosh.
you know what.
i think i've got some talent in being a mom.

another surprise.
i'm going for chinese essay competiton tml!!!
chinese!! i cannot believe i agreed on it.

oh i forgot.
surprise 3
Jivey Enterprise Annual Report was reported to be found in Sue Yin's cupboard.

quoteS of the day

2009-03-04T15:15:00.005+08:00

Be ye fishers of men.

You catch them, HE'll clean them.

God Himself does not propose to judge a man until he is dead.

So why should you?

*
*

Many folks want to serve God, but only as advisors.

*
*

We were called to be witnesses, not lawyers or judges.

*
*

The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power behind us.

The Will of God never takes you to where the Grace of God will not protect you.

REALLY words of truth...

different

2009-03-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

we girls can talk about anything anywhere

we were like talking about love at first sight in physics lab

strange isn't it?

we should be talking about resonance, resistance, friction etc etc....

never mind.

okay,

back to topic

we were talking about love at first sight.

as usual, huey nee was nodding her head in agreement

fyi,

huey nee

*loves romantic stuff

*believes in jodoh

*wants a boy who can sing like fang li shen

*thinks that she has to broaden her circle of boy friends ( not boyfriends ) to look for her mr. right.

ying qi, main rempah for our siaoness.

didnt agree.

well,

i guessing that she

*loves romantic stuff too (u should see how hyper she can get )

* is a bit more conscious than my friend above

*thinks that guys shouldn't act desperate, maybe they really are....who knows, we already know one *winks*

for xin tze

aha! new name huh?

she is such a fun gal to be with!!!!!

*her love experience = nil

same like me

*laughs a lot

same like me

*very busy in school

same like me

she's practically my twin la

just that she's 5 inches taller...

dun u imagine how short i am!!

me?

*i dun believe in love at first sight either

*maybe past experiences proved my theory.

*you think he's the guy....

but you're wrong ( ALWAYS!) for me...

so i'm thinking God is preparing somebody for me whom i shouldn't see yet

haha.

i'll make it a surprise for myself...

if you're wondering

y see man's name is not here,

which she'll practically jump into the topic when we talk about ''D'' topic!

she always says, " hen3 lang4 man4 lo!" = very romantic lo...

she and huey nee make really good desk partners.

well, see man had a photo session.

that's why.

love....

too deep for us/me to comprehend

its strange, like i'm lacking of something

which i really don't mind.

huey nee thinks its super bahagia to be pregnant

cos you're having a being shared between you and your husband.

me?

i just feel bahagia to have a child of my own.

just the motherly love.

that's y they always say i'm motherly.... argh!

new template!!

2009-03-01T13:33:00.002+08:00

sry sher.
u hate this colour i know.><

but i lost my shoutmix and my tags list!!!

*snore~

2009-03-01T12:35:00.007+08:00

i feel so sleepy nowadays.
main reason?
i restrained myself from drinking coffee...
gah!
i need coffee.
huey and wching thinks i " xin1 li3 zhuo4 yong4"= having a delusion
nescafe~~~.
i need you but i have to hate you!

reports show that coffee slows down your metabolism rate (burns off your calories slower) and pumps your heart extra harder to transport oxygen to your brain quicker ( makes you heart work harder) trust me, getting a heartache is NO fun.

that led to the the BAN of coffees from my friends for me during recess.

this was supposed to be an emo post!
i just feel so emo-ish!!!
gah.blah.hah.

do excuse me.
for my insanity.

p.s i did not stop anybody from going to captain ball

so huey, stop your nonsense.

you would rather stay at home and chat to zw><

p.s 2 expect less to get disappointed less.

"i 'm not hoping to get anything from you guys~ "

self hynopsis.

to the girls who are turning 17

2009-02-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

to wan ching:

hey gal,
nice knowing all these years and extra more this year.
since you're sitting next to me.
i thank you for all the notes you've lended me,
for all the invites to redbox even though i seldom turn up,
for all the giggles, and the "slap slap" on my arms when you're hyper.
i think i'm gonna miss you when we graduate.
even though your mood,
gets a teeny little bit unstable sometimes, (SOMETIMES. )
you'll always brush it aside the next day as if nothing happened.
i appreciate that :)

well dear friend,
happy b'day and may you find your " lam fung" *giggles*

to huey nee:

my bestie for the past 10 years.
happy anniversary to both of us :)
i just wanna tell you how much i appreciate the friendship between the both of us
and even though you make life hard for me when you complain you're fat :P
haha. just kidding,
i love you to bits....
for your wild imagination
for your weird humour
for your self indulgance
and for your super speed liking.

you just make my life VERY colourful.
just see how wild and weird you are...

to tzin nie,

my everything-also-ok friend,
your smiles
and your dazzling eyes have certainly sent shocks to guys
yet your big big heart touched mine.
your care and your priority in friendship is something
that is really hard to find.
i really enjoyed the carefree laughter of yours
and your big bear hugs when i feel like screaming or when i'm down.
did anybody mention to u that you make a good cushion?

blah! well, happy bday basketball gal!

well buddies,
its like fate that we were all born within a month.
meeting each other in that 1i class....
till besties to now.

so you guys better think of something for me too!!!
diwajibkan!

birthdays and my so called 'bf'

2009-02-22T22:18:00.010+08:00

let the photos feed you^^

bdays of wching, xin yi and hnee.

well, if you're wondering why u dun see wan ching...

huey nee just had to be in every pic. ^^ wakaka.

we walked and walked and walked.

in heels.

last time i'll do it in them.

they just keep rushing and rushing.

let's go, huey say after one look at the shop.

my jaw practically drops k.

its like she hasn't even stepped into the shop

for more than 2 minutes.

n she says let's go??!

reason?

she has to have her bday present bought.

she saw a bag at MOMOE.

RM 99.90

kaching...

its nice.

but that darling gal says its too expensive.

"aiya, i'll claim from him (u-know-who) la." -me

in the end she got an anklet.

could sense that she wasn't satisfied with the present she got. :P

we headed to KIM GARY later.

total madness.

all the tables beside us were staring.

kept saying the waiter there was my bf.

( inside joke)

see man even took out her phone

pretended to call, to take a picture

of their so called " hen3 shuai4" waiter.

siao siao.

ying qi is the main ingredient of all.

well, with the 3 laughers (wching,see man and hnee) to accompany her

wching, tzin nie and me

me,hnee and see man

me and min xuan

tada,

qi= longlost friend + main rempah for siaoness

girls in action!!
that mango thingy she's eating.

well, its mine.

her hand flies everywhere actually.

teehee XD

ANOTHER EVEIDENCE!!

wan ching can eat ALOT!

even thought it'll never show.

she and qi were like

" your leg very skinny lo."

"your leg very long lo."

" wa, your shoe so nice."

imagine me sitting next to them...

more random photos

yep. the laughers.

laughing till the "mr handsome" didnt dare to walk past us.

oh yes yes.

miss shopaholic is back!!

i lost myself for the past 2 months.

i got myself shoes.

*swoons*

its purple!! RY, dun drool.

~moo

hope this explains my absence at church well enuf^^

happy bday to wanching, xin yi and huey nee.

love you guys to bits!

makes sense

2009-02-18T16:04:00.002+08:00

If you cannot love the ones you see,

How can you...

love God who you can't see?

- Mother Theresa

very GOOD point...

looks like i better work on ppl around me first.

p/s just loved that recent post of RY...
we just fall in the same category>> single but still living a life

ferris wheel

2009-02-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

its just goes up and down.
round and round.
it'll never stop...
well, unless there's no power input to it.

i'm standing right below the ferris wheel.
patiently and eagerly
waiting for whoever or whatever that steps out of one of the carriages.

some are surprising,
some are just painful to go thru again.
some are just the sweetest things created.
some are just really big mountains to get over.

i do appreciate them.
even if they hurt sometimes.
cos you'll never know...
when they'll just leave the carriage and never go up and down again.
some might just go right back in.
and you'll see them real soon.

sometimes i wish
i'll just forget about standing there.
makes life easier, won't it?
haha. but yet,
that's the only connie ferris wheel in the whole world.

you can't take somebody's place
and stand at the entrance of their ferris wheel.
it doesnt have your mark.
nor will it be yours to hold and keep.

well, i'll just treasure those times when i wait for you.
whoever, whatever you are.
make sure you make a mark in my life.

note: this is just another emo post of connie
i know, so dun tell me its emo. ><

p/s: huey nee. keep the other version of the ferris wheel theory to yourself.
even though what i wrote above sounds like your (not mine) theory.

didnt know that

2009-02-10T21:27:00.009+08:00

i just came back from mission trip

on sunday.

and it was a blast.

we were talking and laughing our heads off on our way home

talking about belina, melina and felina (the mosquitoes buried in benice's hair)

well, actually, i didnt sleep on purpose

cos i was scared wilson will fall asleep.

had to talk to him to keep him awake.
wakaka. hilarious.

what really puzzled me was,

ok, let me give you a situation...

a sweet girl who just came down the van,

saw a orang asli boy, young boy, about 6,7 years old,

and she just said hi.

that boy's face just curled up and went

:" waaaaa!!!! ma (mama)!!"

leaving the gal in utter shock...

didnt know my "hi" was that scary.

some photos here.

giving out the clothes.

my favourite part. its like shopping for them.

getting to know the kids better.

they have like 8 siblings, 5 or 4. scary.

julia, the 2nd left is holding her youngest sister.

for more of the photos, and testimonies on our trip.
just look at daryl's facebook and the ISCA blog.

i'm busy and lazy to blab much about it.

better keep my fingers crossed for tml.
taking my undang test after school.
pls do pray for me ppl.
i really dun wanna flunk.

~moo

cut it out, ppl

2009-02-03T20:26:00.003+08:00

i'm not desperate ppl.
well if u assume i am.
(you're wrong btw!!!)
i hope i'm not lol-ing...
i really hope i'm not.

that post, that very post,
was just a mere shout out
on how i felt
at that very second.
that's it, ppl.

if i were to be soooo desperate.
i'll be able to have
another equally desperate boy
to be my bf.
it'll totally save me from my distress.

so,
please....

cut it out.
with icing on top? @_@

and i'm not a lol-la or a lol-lita.
i refuse to.

~absolutely not deperate moo.

so true.

2009-02-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/popup-frame.html

this is so touching...

u guys should really go and see this.

what struck me the most was...

we need to understand

that we cannot make others love us.

but to let ourselves be loved.

great life principle.

its like, all our lives...
we feel unloved.
always trying every method to feel loved.

yet, the only way was to be lovable.

it speaks great truth.

there was another one,

it takes a few seconds to open

profound wounds in someone you love,

yet...

it takes years to heal.

you never know,
what your words can do.
you never know,
how that person is bleeding inside.
you never know,
how much it hurt.

cause' all it took for you
was a tantrum and daggers of words.

i've learnt another principle too,

for guys and gals to be best friends,

have to find each other repulsive.

so true.

without repulsiveness between each other,
you'll practically be more than best friends.

so guys, as a good friend,
i think i should tell you frankly,
i find u repulsive! haha.

~moo

rachel rachel

2009-01-30T12:28:00.011+08:00

anybody wanna be my bf for the day?
you'll get free angpaos?

(just look at what RY wrote at my chatbox)

tell me, if you're interested.

blah. don't bother la.

you'll get tortured by me.

just wanna show you guys some photos

of rachel (my niece) from USA.

rachel and ah nee

rachel, wei wei and sze xuan

(rachel , 4 calls sze xuan, 3 auntie)

very complicated.

sze xuan, me, sze yuhn and rachel

the four gals!!
( this shouldn't be here...)

rachel lim, (not RY)

is my cousin's daughter.

she's likes green

she likes cars

she likes ants. she says they are nice.

last night,

she said,

mummy look!

banana moon.

haha.

while walking back from the hospital,

she said to my dad,

lao teoh,look! i ate vege just now and my shadow grew taller.

fyi, she despises vege.

haha.

to her, time is forever precious.

she cries every night.

why?

i don't wanna sleep!!! i don't want!!!

but yet, when we eat....

her head will be on her mother's lap fast asleep.

haha. children.

especially rachel.

not to mention her big big eyes.

she smiles like RY

but she'll look at you with anger,

if you took her stuff. (dunno that about RY)

she's just loves everybody,

so does everybody in return.

and she just gave me a kiss goodbye.

but at least the house is so much quieter now.

or not it'll be full of taiwanese chinese and american english.

unlike me,

all broken english and chinese.

practically had to speak

proper chinese like the taiwanese.

everybody in the house had to.

even my dad!! amazing.

her fav food.... roti canai!!

(at kayu's)

rachel and her ant catcher= my dad

whhoiyor,

not to mention my bloating tummy

after bringing them to all the places to eat.

everyday! for one week!

~fatty moo

the boyfriend blues

2009-01-27T23:18:00.004+08:00

i cannot believe i'm typing this.
but yet i am...

its always like that every CNY.
all my cousins have their bf's or gf's back at ah ma's house.
like all of them.
and like every year.

peer pressure.
totally bingo.
makes me feel i need one even when sometimes
i don't even understand the ones in my house.
ha.

just a emo rush in my malfunctioning brain.

i'll only, probably, maybe...

bring back one in 12 years time.
the next moo year.
still very long to go.

~moo

happy CNY!

2009-01-25T09:49:00.009+08:00

its the chinese new year.
my road is just full of lights.
but its kinda weird to have blue and green lights together.
i think they just reused their christmas lights.
'
my family did the decorations as well.
usual kiasu attitude.
haha. its always like that at this particular road.

the view from my home:

well, i did the deco for ISCA.
i did the ones i saw and posted on my blog.

http://connieandhercows.blogspot.com/2008/12/dds.html

just that i used cny colours.

the whole bag of onions!!!

that's what my mum calls them!!

and guess how much did they all cost??

RM 8.00 !

i made 7 big ones, 6 small ones.

including the frills.u'd probably notice the stuff i do

like in art or cooking

are terribly easy and less-talent needed stuff.

that's what i like to do.

not to mention making them cheap.

wakaka. it's a shopaholic instinct.

happy chinese new year everyone!

think about getting slimmer after the new year la.

why torture yourself??

( another excuse for me to eat )

And its my year THIS YEAR!!!!

its the MOO MOO YEAR PPL!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! hehe.

what is wrong with the world??

2009-01-20T19:54:00.003+08:00

my mum's sister's best friend recieved a phone call the other day.

" we have your son in hand. pay the ransom or you'll never see him again!!! "

" how much do you want? "

" 100 thousand. "

" i don't have that much....~~~ (tremble) "

" how much can you give? "

" 10 k. the most. can you let me hear my son's voice? "

well, she heard a voice.

" meee (mummy)~ help!! "

"you don't hang up!! i go and check my bank account first!! "

so auntie went to make a phone call.

" hello? "

" ah boy??? is that you??? you're ok? you're not kidnapped? you're at college, is it? "

" er, ma~ are you ok? i'm perfectly well...what's wrong? "

especially with recession going on and
rumours of retrenchment after CNY.
ppl can come up with all sorts of tricks just to get money.
your mums treat you ppl like treasures,
so they might not even think twice before thinking it is a fake.
so please do tell your parents about this,
and BRING YOUR HP OUT!
not to show off, of course.
later get snatched.

~moo

my love/like/crush belief

2009-01-19T20:14:00.006+08:00

i never believed in puppy love.

i supposed that's why its called puppy love.
you only love it when its a puppy.
but when its big, you dump it.
it doesn't last long.

i never understood what liking was.

i felt that...
liking is just another door to hurt and jealousy.
well, unless the opposite guy/gal likes you just as well.
if not, i have no idea how much emotional stress
one needs to go through.
just to wake up everyday...
hoping that that special someone will somehow turn and look at you.
at least just once...

i never liked the idea of lovers to friends.

or even more than friends to friends.
awkwardness can just fill the whole air.
when the both meet in a very unexpected place.
with very unexpected company.

i never thought crushing on someone was enjoyable.

its sweet...
but torturing...
haha... not wanting to show that likeness
but yet, wanting to get to know him/her better.

i never got to feel or even, go through crushing/ liking/ loving a GUY.

but i do know,

how it feels when you are with that special someone.
when you hold his hand,
and walk at the mall.
clutching those fingers tight
and feel that you're on the top of the world.

you really think you really WANT to spend the rest of your life with him
you really believe that he can take care of you for the rest of your life.

well, with God-given wisdom and sharp eyes.... of course.

haha....
strange isn't it?
a gal who has never experience crushing/liking or loving a GUY
actually says she understands how it feels to like someone.

that gal
understood those feelings...
in a dream...
(i shall assume you're fainting..)
but its the truth k!

~moo
thinks she knows love but maybe not

my I WANTS

2009-01-15T18:54:00.003+08:00

i really wanna do everything WELL this year!
honestly...
i want to make this another good year.

i want ISCA to work out well.
i want our mission trip to Batu 23
to impact our lives and their lives.
i want my cell group to grow, not in size,
but in maturity.
i want my school results to be good.
i want our school grad. magazine to turn out good,
being able to hold my head,
not letting the graduates down.
i want my friendship this year to last forver,
even as we leave to our own ways
next year...

i want to accomplish all my I WANTS.

but...

i know,
thru my pride and self-reliance.
i shall never succeed in any of them.

i know,

all my I WANTS should become...

With GOD, i will....

i pray,
i shall not let my self pride get over me.
amen.

starting anew!

2009-01-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

ooowh...
me likie my new blogskin.
wakaka.
its colourful.
i sound like a 6 year old kid.

oh ya,
an announcement to all ISCAlites.
the PNB'S are having a garage sale this week.
and a food sale too.
so if you wanna buy revision books, ( new )
for half the price.
Bring CASH!!!
haha.

thanks for your support!
its for the orang aslis

~moo

AGAIN!

2009-01-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

somebody's leaving again.
yep. thern is.
but, i don't think the fact that he's leaving
has sunk in yet.
i feel so bad la.
i cried when leslie left.
jeremiah cried till he could
flood the whole church just now.
(he does everytime when somebody leaves)
and i got a feeling i wont cry
even if i see him off tommorow.

ben thinks its because of his personality
so not my problem.
he's the cool guy, ya know.
he gives you the feeling that you
cant be close friends with him.
yep, that's thern.

...gosh.
and soon it'll be my turn.
to say my goodbyes....
yikes.!!

another AGAIN thingy is...
i'm a mentor again.
guess who....
.........
........
..........

choo xher rael.

teehee^^.

let's hope i succeed.
do applaude if you see changes in that mentee of mine.

~ moo~

The D.D's

2008-12-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

Rachel is her usual self again.
i kinda failed my mission.
But i'm glad i failed.
I'm soooo gonna miss her siao-ness
if she really becomes poised.

Yesterday, we had the ISCA awards
for the best group award.
Girl Power got the prize.
So I was thinking we should have another group
called the D.D's.
which is DecoDolls/ DecoDudes
haha. sounds so lame.
At least its still better than I M PRINCE.

We have like so many artsy ppl in ISCA.
Like maylyn, shari, sarah choong, von, sher,
sammie, RY, anthony, gary, pr. lydia, mookie....
we can really start our own group!

wakaka.
some other crazy ideas of mine.

btw, check this out.
This is so cool.
i never tot of making christmas decorations that way.
just using strips of paper and you staple them together.
tada!!
can be used for CNY too.

taken from:

http://enderbynest.blogspot.com/search/label/DIY%20HOME

rachel's mentor

2008-12-18T13:05:00.002+08:00

rach was grumbling yesterday about how rach ooi was showing off her boyfriend.

RY: " yor, that rachel ooi ar, keep showing off her bf and said her bf will be better than any bf i get!!!! "

haha.
RY is always worried about not getting a bf in future life.
you know why...
and wilson says her bf will be either deaf or will be deaf.

she just totally forgot about the whole her-bf-wont-be-better-than-rach ooi's-issue
and went on being her USUAL self.

" rach ar, i thought you wrote on your blog that you wanted to get rid of your bad habits? "-moo

http://shuhweirachel.blogspot.com/2008/12/habits-i-hate.html

" yea, ya lor. how ar? you know what?...."-RY

so i ended up being her
mentor in becoming a eligible girlfriend for a boy.
that's what she intorduced me as to wilson.

both me and wilson were on our mission.
everytime she laughed,
you know how she laughs,
(i always say a tennis ball can fit right into her mouth)
i eye her. and she stops and
tries REALLY hard to contain it.
that wilson told her,
" no, you should stand up straight and put one leg in front, cover your mouth with one hand and only giggle. "
it would be such a sight if RY laughs like tat. i mean giggle.

and RY has her extra big movements when she talks.
so i eye her. and then she stops.
i should be called the eye-er instead of a mentor.
she got tired, i guess, of being so composed.

" i thought my bf i supposed to like me for who i am? "- RY

" NO!!! first impression counts ok! or not you'll scare every boy away. imagine when you meet your future mother-in-law for the first time for dinner, and you just go wahahahaha when you hear a joke. i think she'll faint straightaway and there goes your bf. "-wilz

to make things easier, i suggested that
" or not ask your bf to make sure nobody at the table makes a joke lo."

at the finale, she was tensed up that i laughed.
" you must be really pressured to have me around you." -moo

" no la, i need the pressure. or not i can't change."-ry

so three more days, i'll be eye-ing her.
since we're together for so long during our practises.
so ppl, do help.
when you see her trying to fit a tennis ball into her mouth,
tell her, " compose rach, compose!''

she's is so going to invite you to her wedding.
haha.
rach, dun kill me or scream when you read this.
remember, compose youself^^

~mentor moo~

gushing blessings

2008-12-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

i am soooo shocked.
i think i can fit a tennis ball into my mouth.
(like how rachel yeoh does it^^)
serious.

i cannot believe it.
me?
a distinction?
in piano?
at grade 8???

u're not the only who does not believe this.
i am screaming my head off now!!
i'm not a piano enthusiasts like cass, emily, maylyn or von.
i just play,
well, for the sake of playing.
that's it.
and i get a distinction for my grade 8?

i really do believe that God really does miracles.
first time in my entire life,
that i was one mark away from a full score for my aural test.
first time in my entire life ,
to be commented on having prompt reactions for scales.

this is really a miracle.
and i am astounded.
cos i myself do not think that i can even get a merit.

thank you God.
for this blessing you've given to me.
thank you God.
for helping me learn that i have to look to you.
thank you God.
for making christmas this year a good one.

p/s. sammie got distinctions too for his grade 6.

another miracle.

~moo~

can't say enuf

2008-12-16T14:52:00.009+08:00

i just wanna say....

i am sooo, extremely grateful to all the people who helped in the sleepover.

YOU GUYS MADE THE SLEEPOVER

A BLAST!!!

i wanna thank you guys

for taking out your time in

helping me do all those

last minute deco stuff and

helping me do the last minute touch ups and

helping me bring brushes, glue, newspaper, and

glitterize the planets.

i wanna thank all of you who LENDED the glow-in-the-dark stars.

you made the 'skies' beautiful^^

i wanna thank Marcus Pan for helping out for food.

i wanna thank Wilson for guiding me.

i wanna thank all the ushers. You guys did a great job.

i wanna thank maylyn, chern, sher, jamie, miah,

leonard, gary, calvin, joshua khoo,

joshua ooi (for coming by to inspect),

matthew, nicholas, bernard (for glitterizing the stars),

derrick, issac, oh dear, i hope i didnt miss any names.

honestly... I LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS!!!!!!

i wish i could give you guys kisses....

but then i think pr. Lydia would call me for counselling.

AND i just thank God for your existance in my life.

p/s: brandon, you don't have to rub it in k.

~moo~

an ever grateful cow.

camp this year

2008-12-12T01:06:00.005+08:00

camp was totally awesome!
really!
even though i lost my voice for the last day.

the speaker, pr. felix chuah was really my F.A.V.
he was the speaker for my first youth camp.
and he really OPENED my eyes about the Holy Spirit.
and ' soaking' too.

this year, was another surprise as well.
he taught us to listen to God's voice.
which had been a really big struggle to me
which i believe i'm very noisy in my heart
till i muffle up God's voice.
ha.

honestly, for the first night.
i really couldn't feel the Lord's presence.
i had the thought that maybe God wasn't going to do
anything with me this year.

the next day....
i started coughing and my chest just tightened up.
i dun know whether was it because of the pressure
but i really had trouble breathing especially during
teambuilding with 300 over ppl in a hall
so hyped up!

that is some serious oxygen intolerance there!

so i had a whiff of Haan-Ming's medication.
(thx haan-ming!!)
and i said a quick prayer outside the toilet
(cause i was leading worship that night)
using the ELIJAH CHALLENGE METHOD
u can imagine me saying, IN THE NAME OF JESUS....
outside the washroom with ppl walking
in and out.

* the mothers who brought their children
to the toilet were like " shhh! chehcheh is praying,"
haha. and i tried to pretend not to hear it.

after praying for everybody in the room,
(btw, i managed to sing without fainting, praise the Lord!)
i still couldn't feel the Lord's presence.
then pr. felix asked all the worship team to come forward.
at first, i bawled so badly
but when pastor prayed that we would used our voices
to extend his kingdom,
i was so lead by the spirit that i sang soooo long non stop.
something like tarzan...(the girl version)

it ended wonderfully.
full of joy and laughter.
(if you were there to see the situation, you'll know what i mean.)

so never say, God's not going to do anything.
it's just whether you believe God will do something.

~moo~

wakaka. i'm not emo.

2008-12-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

okay...
the previous post was reaalllly EMO!
i re-read it and i was like "IS that me???"

wilson kinda made me look at my blog again.

" yor, what's wrong with you. You're not like that one!"

very true.

i really dunno what got into me.
i'm guessing its the lack of carbs...
i was extra moody that whole period of time.

so i've made a choice.
i will not let emotions get into my way!!

saya tak tau

2008-11-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

i feel like banging my head onto my keypad...
argh....
i dunno...
something's wrong with me.
like i'm emo...

is it because i have too much stuff?
or i'm just not sleeping enuf?
or i just feel hols are ending too fast...?

i just feel like a rag doll.
not wanting to move.
limbs hanging beside me lifeless...

maybe i just like to have something in my hands.
to keep me busy....

i dunno...

i really don't know......

~moo~

shopaholic

2008-11-20T17:10:00.006+08:00

sigh....

it's only the 4th week of my hols

and i feel like my hols are ending so so so soon.

but i'll look at the bright side.

at least i did some shopping.

haha...

huey nee said it's scary to shop with me.

cos i always notice the nice stuff

and SHE ALWAYS buys them, without thinking twice.

so beware ppl if u wanna hangout with me.

Can you believe that i even shopped at pangkor??

i'm not talking about food products,

i'm talking about clothes.

i bought a hat... RM 5

SUPER CUTE

it's so flexible that be a

peter pan cape

japanese gal hat

cowboy hat

dutchlady hat

cy and my bro did all the experimenting.

so it looks like a good deal.

and i bought a t-shirt!!! RM 10
i made all my buddies buy them^^
i got green, huey got purple, tzin nie got orange and w.ching got brown.
it really 3-D cos it actually has three slippers on it.
very interesting...with the words "tri-single" on top.
even tho they say we're four, instead of three.

t.nie, huey, me and w ching

and then, back in penang, i bought a pair of earrings on tuesday.
at new world park.
RM 8... its a felty-green rose.
i look like a gypsy wearing those...

5 days= and i bought 3 items

the hols = 6 weeks x 7 days

= 42 days divide 5 mutiply 3...

=25.2 items....

that's is very bad....
my dad's sooo going to go bankrupt...haha

~moo~

i'm moo-ing again!

cheese week

2008-11-13T01:16:00.010+08:00

finally updating my blog after centuries...

i think i like browsing thru blogs than updating them.

its just so interesting to see how different things can be from what i see on the outside.

and they can be just sooo amusing.

btw, this should actually be posted waay back before the exams.

it was cheese week at daryl's place.

there's this thing in CG that everybody has to bring some food

according to the theme.

that was cheese week so we had to bring something cheesy. (*pretty obvious)

so, i was in charge of welcome.

i was totally out of ideas...seriously.

so i had to use an old game.

which was the maths game.

i was the game master.

so i had to give math problems.

goodness. u think it was easy??

WRONG!!!

i had to remember every figure i was saying.

i tried with a calculator but i gave up...

used the old-fashioned way instead

paper and pen!!!

let the games begin.....

the penalty?

one wrong answer u cross out on the paper

which has numbers all jumbled up...

one step nearer you are to becoming a mouse.

wakaka...cheese ~ mouse

BRILLIANT me came up with an idea to spice things up

you thought it was just some brainy game?

i wouldn't do that.

to be a mouse, you need eyeliners...

for the guys sake,
eyeliner= colour pencils either brown or black which is drawn on the eyelids near the eye

and BEHOLD!
make-up artists unleashed
boy, did they have fun...especially the GUYS!!!

i drew that on daryl

and i drew a mole on jamie's flawless skin....wakaka

daniel's squirming even though he deserves it.

as the excitement died down,

pirate-thern had this VERY AMUSING idea...

LET'S DRAW CONNIE!!!!

i was shaking my head so hard

that my head would topple off.

i kept saying,

THE GAME MASTER IS NOT EVEN PLAYING!!!!

now u know why daniel deserves his punishment?
he was like, come! come!

i was pushed to the chair...

and i was their CANVAS!!!!

somebody ( i think it was bug, attempted to use

ARTLINER!!!!!) goodness!!!

i was laughing and crying

and laughing

and screaming

and wacking off hands

and turning my head

and wiping off my tears

and squirming

and laughing.

the end product...teehee

the wacky pose....

btw, about wall-up...
we had 7 packets of cheezels
a tub of bread clamped with lots of cheese
yvonne's delicious dish> shepard's pie
ben's creative dish> sandwich with egg wrapped cheese.

not to mention, my dad got a shock when he came in the house to get me

woow.... what happened to you?

i simply replied, ask them.

but it was fun
even though i did not have a fun time

removing their masterpieces...

problem!

2008-10-24T01:12:00.004+08:00

i do not like exams.
let me repeat,

I DO NOT LIKE EXAMS!!!

it makes my face go pimply,
eyebags, (even obvious cos i'm fair)
not to mention that i get rotund too!
argh!
and it's has been SOOO hard for the past decades for me to even lose 2 kg.
2 kg = 4 bottles of mineral water.
and i find myself talking to myself
:"what's so hard to lose 2 kg!!!"

i've tried green tea and coffee
but it makes me burp.
[if u know how bad i burp last time]
reports say that crunches don't work
so i shan't bother.
some even say milk helps
only if you replace your diet with it but not adding to it.
[but my mum has not restocked any dairy supplies since June]
you might say i should starve myself,
problem is i run to school here and there everyday.
i dun feel like fainting in school.
[MAIN REASON why i can't slim down,
i have reasons for everything^^]

never mind...
i'll just exercise while i study.
i dunno how, but i'll try and figure it out.

just do a thing for me, guys.
tell me i'm fat when u see me.
it'll make me control my binge so much easier.

but wait, i dun think i can take it,
that will make me so depressed,
till i can't study
so maybe you guys will just keep quiet
and act as if i didn't grow fat for the time being.

but then, i'll eat and eat and eat.
till there's no turning back...
oh well,
i'll tell u what i want till i myself know what i want.

~moo~
in distress

i have a crush!!

2008-10-22T11:03:00.006+08:00

some people are just "unbelievable".
they change their crushes...like once a week?
makes me wonder...
how many husbands/wives are they going to have?

sometimes, i doubt they even like that person.
it's most probably that he/she has a personality or a talent that catches your eye.
so when they see something IMPERFECT about that person....
whoosh, of they go. crushing on another person.

the flow now is like:

1. u notice him/her
2. u see something nice about him/her. (u start to crush on him/her)
3. u start to know more about him/her.
4. u so call really 'crush' on him/her
4. u see something bad about him/her
5. u 'dump' him/her a.k.a. u 'crush' on somebody else.

hey...nobody's perfect.
so you're going to crush for your whole life?
i'm not saying i'm against crushes.
i just don't encourage it.

especially those when crushes are exposed
and awkwardness just fills the air.
especially those when you like/ just have to
express your feelings.
especially those when you accidentally
tell your fren and they blab it out.
especially those when your crush tells everyone
you like him/her. [if they know]
especially those when your crush likes someone else
and you spend the whole day having a heart break.
especially those when your crush manipulates you and
makes you think that you're the only living thing on earth.
especially when parents get involved.

crushes are not meant to be like that.
they are meant to be kept in secret... deep in the heart.
crushes are meant to be unnoticed...
as u silently notice him/her.

crushes are meant to be like wine, the longer u keep in the cellar, the nicer it taste.
when the wine's ready to be drunk, only then this crush of yours turns to LIKE....turns to LOVE.

too much is said.
that will be all i'll say...
crushes are too tedious to handle at this age.
the best solution, is to crush on JESUS.

without worrying about parents objecting it...
without worrying that it gets exposed.
without worrying of getting a heart break.
without worrying that you'll get manipulated.

because....
your parents would love for this to happen.
Jesus would love to see you show your love for HIM to others.
Jesus would never let your heart break....he broke his first for you.
Jesus will never ever manipulate you in any other way...he's just there to guide you and to love you. Still placing the choices of your life in your hands.

you know what, i think....

I CRUSH ON JESUS! ^^

updates....cow's getting grumpy...

2008-10-16T00:34:00.005+08:00

1. mac [ wilz' dog] came home!!!!

2. We won the YE CHALLENGE TROPHY!!!!
3. I 'm real glad we won.
4. I found out we had to do a presentation.
5. Now, i'm not so glad we won.
6. After realising the need to practise A LOT...., I'M NOT HAPPY we won.
7. but then, i would be strangled if we didnt win.
8. And if we didn't win, we wouldn't get RM 600.
9. That would mean less dividend.
10. All my hard work would be for nothing.
11. I'll be soooo upset then....
12. More upset than not winning.
13. But i'm not happy now!!!!!!

urgh!!!!

not to mention
exams clashes with the prize giving ceremony.

and not to mention i start kepo-ing AGAIN!!!

1. Going to help design a poster for children's drama.
( will post it up ^^)
2. Going to help wilz make a elephant mask.
( don't ask me why he was the elephant...he still thinks he's too skinny to be one..*winks*)
3. Involved in the children's drama ...
( i'm acting, ppl.....!! weird rite... even though i do a good imitation of the old lady in the scene where she woke her 2nd son up in the middle of the night [you know for what] in money not enough 2, i still don't see any acting talent in me)

non kepo-ing stuff
stuff i have to do during the hols....
and its super packed
1. Start my bible knowledge studies
2. Start undang classes [ i'm going to drive....wakakaka!!]
3. Start looking for universities [tons of brochures at home]
4. Before doing no.3 , decide what course do i wanna take!!!!
5. Go for drama practises.
6. Practise my piano... [grade 8...*faint*]
7. Most importantly---- SHOPPING!!!!!

That only happens every year end when i can shop for the whole day/ 3 whole days and literally shop till i drop. Probably why all my dreams happen in shopping malls. and i have to shop!!!!! i must i must i must!!!!

...
...
...

conscience to connie: " stop being such a grumpy old lady! you wanted it! you were the kepo gal!"

connie to conscience: " it makes things worse just to know you're right.... just go on studying, will ya?"

aahhhh!!!!
don't bother me... just needed to let go some of my steam...
i'm totally affected by the poisoned milk issue....
and cows get grumpy when they're sleep deprived.

[ * shan't `moo today* ]

so true! it ain't the moo's fault!

2008-10-08T10:22:00.003+08:00

“牛是最无私的，人们常说，吃的是草，挤的是奶！但是这么纯洁的奶汁却被“污染”了！到底谁动了我的奶呢？一定不是牛它自己！”

i came across this in xuehai...and it was just so tempting to post this!!!okay...for your sake...

here's the DIRECT translation:

"cows are the most unselfish creatures. they say, cows eat grass but SQUEEZE out milk! But this pure milk has been 'polluted'! So who touched my milk? It certainly ain't the cows themselves!"

it just sounds PLAIN unpoetic....

MY version:

ah....unselfish mooing creatures....
you eat grass...
but amazingly produce white fluid.
without saying any word of complaint.
yet,it breaks my heart to say
this white fluid of yours
has poisoned tons of people.
Who has framed you??!!
Who has poisoned your pure milky liquid?
It ain't the moo's fault! you say......

teehee!
~moo~

............counting....

2008-10-07T01:03:00.008+08:00

i am soooooo happy!!!!!

the annual report finally got printed today!

and my, it looks super professional....

wakakakaka....

don't bother about me

i'm floating on cloud nine now....

i'm extra proud of the cover actually.

my eyes almost bulged out editing this....

tada!!!!

nice rite???

okay, i'm still a newbie in editting la...

so pardon me...

but it wouldn't be long

till i start to bite my nails this wed afternoon....

results are going to be announced...

best annual report and best product report....

the prize>> RM600!!!

i'll just hide myself in some place in the school

to avoid being strangled if we didnt even get a place at all....

so ppl, pls pray hard...

oh ya, btw...
if you guys just like to roam about...

pls look out for a dog....

preeettty puhlease with icing on top??? @_@

it's Mac, Wilson korkor's dear dog.

He's been missing for a week.

and he's a really special dog to be taken care of...

so pls do a favour?